So many that I took for granted.
My life lately has been blood draws, testing procedures, and financial audits. I’ve been trying to continue lately but my heart faces darkness quite often. I’ve been overcoming my fears of needles and blood just to try to get to a more comfortable spot dealing with all of this.
It took a long time to push and push my doctors to look into my abdominal pains. With my family’s history of reproductive cancers I felt it was necessary to ask for help from my gynecologist. Though it did take an absurdly long time to get to where I am today I am thankful that my doctor LISTENED to me instead of just prescribing me higher strength ibuprofen and telling me it was just period pains.
There are so many things that I wish I had done before I got to this point.
Though I write in personal journals the more intimate details of my struggle I wish to use this online platform to spread information and positivity until I can’t anymore. I want better for myself and for others. I am tired of being a quiet and scared girl who never picks her head up and only stares straight at the ground before her feet.
Yahusha has done so much for me these past few months. Though I am in the beginning of my Walk into Righteousness I have felt continually reassured as I read my Scriptures (TS2009 or HLLYH versions, for anyone curious) and hopeful that I may make it to the Wakened life beyond his burning nation. I have done many things wrong in my short life but I am trying my hardest to make up for them.
Yahusha proclaims His undying support and love for us all – He carried all of our sins upon His flesh and sacrificed Himself under Elohim’s eye to redeem us all. I wish one day to embody such selflessness. I want to walk in the Truth and find peace along the way.