I’m still feeling really out of it mentally but I am forcing myself to walk more and more. My emotions are all over the place.
How do you recover from this kind of thing? I feel lonelier than I ever have before. I feel like no one is happy to remember I exist and everyone moved on without me. I’m in a bad depression.
I wonder sometimes if you remember what’s coming up and if you’re thinking about me. My abdomen aches perpetually now. My check in didn’t go well. Now I’m applying for chemotherapy coverage and financial things. Still on a liquid diet. Lots of things… Just piling up on my plate. But I think about how you’re blissfully unaware of anything… And I try to find peace in that.
You look aloof in your photos. I’m still on the same news I told you in the parking lot. Nothing changed with the surgery. Crazy life…