Yahuah Reigns, Yahusha Saves!

Today was an exhausting and trying day. I don’t feel ready to face anything so I am finding myself hiding more and more from myself. Though… you can’t hide from yourself and your own body.

Depleted. I feel depleted. I knew there was going to be bad news. I’m alone facing the news and the fears, the tidal pool of depressive downs… everything. I understand why but it doesn’t make it much easier.

The reality of cancer is depletion and decay.

The reality of the attempt of my life hasn’t faded and won’t fade away. I feel this is punishment for that attempt and I’m understanding of it. I’m still alone and I still want to be hugged. Everything is a blur of activity but I feel like a hollow little ghost amidst it all… barely existing, barely moving, barely anything. A wisp of a girl that … just can’t feel anything other than fatigue.

Yahuah sends the waves that knock us over, and He sends the calmest of waters. I’m waiting for my calm waters. I’m praying my hardest to find the guidance that I need and the strength to pursue the Truth.

Have I lost my light? Yahusha please find my voice… I feel like I’ve lost it to my body’s vicious cycle of altered “renewal”.

Lean not on your own understanding… someone commented this on my last post and I needed it to keep myself together. I read all of your responses and I am grateful for your words of encouragement. Thank you for them.



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  1. May 29, 2020

    Sorry to hear of this my friend. I also feel depleted, though my depletion is nothing compared to what you are going through. But for what it’s worth, you have a new friend.

    – M

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  2. May 28, 2020


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  3. May 26, 2020

    Hi. I’m glad you found my blog post tonight. Welcome. It wasn’t by accident, I hope you know that. I post a lot about Yahuah’s, God’s love. His unending, unlimited, unconditional love. And He loves you so much! When you don’t have what you need in a moment of time, Yahuah, God does. Lean into him. Talk to him. Read his word, and hide it in your heart. Prayers, and blessings.

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  4. May 24, 2020

    Trust in Yahuah with all your heart Yahuah is lamp to your feet and light to. Your path

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  5. May 23, 2020

    hold on. I am praying for you

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  6. May 21, 2020

    “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” — Romans‬ ‭8:18‬

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  7. May 21, 2020

    Praying that you feel God’s presence. He loves you!!

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